חמוד כושל ומבשל

you assume what doesn't exist here and now doesn't exist at all.
you keep forgetting everything you ever loved because you are afraid you'll lose it.
you open up and smile but before you can fully comprehend what it is that happened you wipe off tears of joy and shut off.
you freely consider becoming what you can never become and try to convince youself it's the only remaining option.
you're not even sure you believe any of this is real.
you force yourself into mazes of logic and avoid striding through clear ground.
your imagination is ineffective every time your steam strays off the rails.
you've got nothing to hold on to closely.
you've got nothing to lose,
but youself.
but why would I want a dumb naive kid like you wandering around in my jurisdiction?