חמוד כושל ומבשל

I've been developing the ultimate path for a long time now it's the only way for me because you didn't step on and impale my face 16 nor 14 years ago i'd killed my naive destiny and went to confront demons made of shit I wanted to take care of myself and do shit and this would be perfect I do not need anyone else why is this so impossible because I don't care about any of it I'm not worth anything unless you believe otherwise there is nothing useful I can do unless you expect it of me If I don't see anything that you'd expect from me I simply cannot surprize you, nor myself