אני לא מאמינה במושג הזה יותר.
עברתי כבר יותר מידי דברים, חוויתי יותר מידי דברים ועכשיו אני גם בסחרור רגשי מחדש שכבר נובע מיותר מידי דברים.
כואב לי, ידעתי שגם זה ילך לאיבוד, ועדיין זה כואב.
כרגע אלו הם הרגשות שלי ואני שונאת את זה.
אני שונאת את כל העוצמות, אני שונאת את עצמי, אני שונאת את זה שאני קיימת בכלל.
אולי הסיבה שאני קיימת זה רק בשביל שלא/נשים יהיה טוב לתקופה מסויימת?
אני כבר לא יודעת.
אני כבר תקופה מרגישה שאני הדמות שבשיר:
"Lose your patience, losing time, i can't face it out of my mind
You can say it, i don't mind, i know you hate that i'm a
Bad luck charm, i bring harm, i can't do fucking anything right
Bad luck charm, break my heart, break my spirit down cause i'm a
Jinx, wishing it would all stop, wishing it would all just detonate
Jinx, light another fuse, maybe this time i can use it to get away
Jinx, picking up the pieces, did i even need this anyway?
Jinx, trust me, you can leave, i'm a jinx
All i wanted was a place to rest to make some friends and a safety net
All i wanted was the pain to end, but now they're dead
Oh, why is my life so fucked? i don't dеserve this
Oh, why do i look for love? i don't dеserve it
Jinx, wishing it would all stop, wishing it would all just detonate
Jinx, light another fuse, maybe this time i can use it to get away
Jinx, picking up the pieces, did i even need this anyway?
Jinx, trust me, you can leave, i'm a
They told me that i wasn't ready to do this, i'm more than a nuisance, i might be conducive to plots being useless
But this time i'm leading the charge just prove that i know what i'm doing
Swear i can help, i got no more excuses, think to myself that there's no way i'm losing
They don't even know my improvement and that's why i'm blowing a fuse and i
Oh no, what have i done?
I might have gone and let the bomb off on everyone
Was vying to protect them all, now i've got none
I did it again, I did it again, i want it to end
My cognition's off limits, lost meaning
I'm killing, awful is all i'm feeling
Mental's gone and lost its function
All i ever do is go and cause destruction, i feel like a
Jinx, wishing it would all stop, wishing it would all just detonate
Jinx, light another fuse, maybe this time i can use it to get away
Jinx, picking up the pieces, did i even need this anyway?
Jinx, trust me, you can leave me, i'm a jinx"
