נָתַתִּי רוּחִי בְּךָ וְאֶת חַיֶּית

Insane, perverted, different
 
She always thought she was insane, perverted, different
 
Not rooted to the ground, the paths she chose were difficult to walk
 
In bare feet, a journey of pain and disappointment
 
Exhausted by the path and the walking
 
The night was always lonely, the sun always shining too brightly
 
So she was always between the sounds, never touching
 
Always listening
 
Her sexuality only growing until she repressed it, back to the vault in her mind
 

 
And in one moment the cub’s eyes met the lion
 
Sometimes only one hand is needed to direct you deeper
 
To give everything
 
To let go
 
Be swept away, more than you thought was possible initially
 
To walk an unfamiliar path but exciting nonetheless
 
Unique to you, your sexuality
 
With everything you knew, had learned about yourself
 
And after everything you have been through
 
The emotion builds gradually
 
And only slowly appears
 
Confidence in yourself first and then in someone else
 
Because the safest thing is you
 

 
And suddenly it changes
 
In my hands
 
There’s the scent of familiarity, of home
 
What you wanted but didn’t expect, it’s in the air
 
Just breathe and take it in
 
And this path is everything
 
It’s right
 
You may never go back to who you were
 
Because you’ve found a safe place to express yourself
 
In the hands that are right for you
 

 
And what was suppressed deep in the heart, in the dusty vault
 
Emerges into the open air, butterflies in your stomach
 
Time stops
 
Longing
 
More than what you expected but certainly what you had hoped for
 
And wanted, consciously or unconsciously, you summoned me to you
 
You are my property
 

 
And the lion awaits your coming
 
Roars to you
 
To not take another path
 
Do not swallow questions, taste the answers
 

 
And then at the entrance it happens
 
Like every painting
 
With four hands, blending the colors
 
Creating a new reality
 
Your reality, from within you
 
From now on
 

 
By Eli Dom