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Lilu - my journey

Most of my writing is fictional though inspired by personal experiences. Enjoy
לפני 4 שנים. 11 במאי 2019 בשעה 20:22

I want that kind of fuck that hurts
The kinda fuck I can feel for days after
The kinda fuck that rips me apart, that tears me in to pieces, shatters my senses but calms my soul

An Epic fuck where the memory of it creeps up on me in my humdrum life

I want a revenge fuck, for all the times I made your life hell

Punish me
For not being good enough
Or being too good
For being a seductress
For tempting you
For being an addiction
For enjoying it and for wanting more

  • Humiliate me
    Push my face to the  floor while you drill my dark hole

Make me lick your spit off the floor

Make me scream
Make me beg for more and beg for it to stop

I need you to make me pay
Pay for all the times I pissed you off with my dramas and silly concerns
Pay for being a princess a whore and a total bitch

Fuck me like your life depends on it
Fuck me like you've never fucked before
Fuck me like I killed your dog, ruined your life and broke your heart
I need you to fuck me like you hate me, so I know you care

לפני 5 שנים. 1 במרץ 2019 בשעה 15:37

The storm in my head doesn't settle and at best its foggy. Sometimes I wonder off somewhere in my mind and I cant snap out of my daydreams.

I search every face for you and look over my shoulder a thousand times a day. But a little numb I go about my daily routine. I leave for work at the same hour and return home without any diversions.

In my mind I see you sitting there, I see you in my bed. Yet I cannot bring myself to touch the stuff you left behind for fear of breaking.

Even my dreams are haunted by you. So vivid I can smell you and my body yearns for you. But I torture myself and deny her any release.

I am angry and I am hurt but most of all im baffled. I still dont understand what I did wrong or what I should have done differently.

A million questions run through my mind and I often doubt the answers that common sense and reason might offer me.

The storm will settle, winter will pass, and the sun will shine again. 

 

 

Before you charged into my life I had been alone for ever and I was content with that. I didnt feel I needed much more. The hole you left behind wasnt there before you came into my life and now you have gone I suddenly feel empty and lost. 

 

I know it's over and I'm left now to find my peace again. But I just want to add that I'm grateful.

Yes, I'm grateful! Because now I know what's missing in my life. Now I know what I need to feel whole.

 

 

 

 

לפני 5 שנים. 28 בפברואר 2019 בשעה 0:20

 

  Disclaimer alert- apologies ahead of time if this may upset anyone. This is not aimed at genuine bdsmers any strain/type or gender or sexual preferences. 


This is my own personal summary and  observations of my journey through the world of bdsm and kink the past 12 yrs. 

This rant touches everyone within the community somewhere or other. And I dont give a flying fuck if some of you don't agree with some of this, or even any of it for that matter!


There's a good chance hardly anyone will read it, since it's written in English. And excuse me for that, but quite  honestly. 

If you can't read a simply written text in English you really shouldn't be in this lifestyle. Cos this lifestyle is NOT for idiots, (the same way that it's not for children and phsyco's).


Which brings me to my 1st observation-


I have met some really stupid people who did some really stupid things during play, to others and themselves! 

And I'm not just talking about physically, like kidney damage from dangerous blows to areas off limits or permanent scars from irresponsible play etc, I'm talking about emotional damage too.

I am shocked at how little people "in the lifestyle" actually know about bdsm. They never researched the subject, know the history of shibari or ever heard of the story of O for example. They don't understand the principle of bdsm, the Ds dynamic, the difference between a slave and a submissive, who is a Top, who is a bottom or what a rigger or rope bunny is.. They don't bother to learn about anatomy and the effects of impact play or the dangers. They don't know about negotiations and considerations or the physiology of endorphins or even what the hell is aftercare!!


There are also thousands of kinks and fetishes and they spill over into the world of bdsm. You might have a rape fetish and that's just fine. It happens to be the biggest fantasy among women. But you should take into consideration that you may never get to live that kind of fantasy. Same goes for medical. Even scat has a place in this world. 

Some of these activities might be a hard limits for most and stay just a fantasy for the rest. 

Your thing might be getting fucked up the ass by a transvestite pole dancer! 

Whatever rows your boat. Whatever tickles your fancy! Anything goes in the world of Fetish!

Just remember one very important rule- Don't try to force anything onto others or manipulate other's just to get what you want! 

For example- you cannot go around promising/manipulating a babygirl into a nurturing DaddyDom dynamic if you just have a fetish for fucking 18yr old trailer trash from time to time!

 


2nd observation -


Since 50 Fucking Shades in 2012 there became an influx of bdsmers worldwide. It came out of the closet and has become mainstream. Since then every Tom, Dick and Harry is suddenly a Master at the age of 30 with 12yrs experience! It became a fucking meat market! A shuk of inferior fruits and vegetables and stinking meat covered in flies! 

A far cry from the secret society of intellectuals that kept their activities private, who practiced their art with wisdom and depth and great emphasis on empathy and emotional intelligence.


Truth is that generally a true submissive has a predisposition to be submissive, like Dominants are born leaders etc. This being so makes a submissive a target for abuse by Charlatans and Predator's. And this is what turns this "lifestyle" out of balance- when people who have no idea what bdsm is all about, or even care what it's all about call what they do BDSM, when all they do is take advantage my fellow submissives! I wish to add that although I write specifically about female subs in this post, the male sub deserves the same considerations cos they also suffer exploitation and serious physical damage as a result of charlatan dommes. 


A submissive is a generous natured person, who puts their trust in You. She looks to You for guidance. She puts herself under Your care. She feels safe with You. She gives herself completely to You. You have her blessing to do with her as you please, body, mind and soul. She consents to Your every whim because she see's You worthy of that. And You need her to feel complete, cos without a submissive You are nothing more than a half of Yourself. 

All she asks in return is You cherish what she offers You and recognises her worth as Your's.


So why have i seen so much disappointment within the female submissive community on my journey? Why have I witnessed so much pain and manipulation, so many lies and abuse towards these beautiful people? 

Do You really believe they deserve that kind of treatment? Isn't this on the same lines as kicking someone while they are down or abusing an innocent child, a cripple or a stray dog?? 


Why do we allow this to happen to our most prized possession?

 

 

And that's what brings me to my 3rd observation- 


The Predator's and The Charlatans!!


These people are dangerous!!  They are Opportunist. They don't care about the rules or SSC's. (they don't even know what they are)! Some don't even know what the b or Ds or the sm is in bdsm. They don't care to know of, or if in fact there are issues or traumas in a person's pasts or consider their reputations. They don't care what your vanilla name is, what's your story or what you want from this world. They take no responsibility, pay no attention to consequences and they definitely have no interest in practicing any form of respect or trust. 

This is a meat market to them! They feel they are entitled just because!  They behave like children in a candy store and all they are concerned about is getting them some of the action.  They have no intentions of nurturing or supporting or educating and caring. 

Just bring them new assholes to fuck and if you are lucky they might throw you a bone!!


BUT I SAY- NO MORE!!

I SAY WE NAME YOU!!

I SAY WE SHAME YOU!!

I SAY WE KICK YOU OUT!!


I will not allow this to continue! 

My heart breaks every time one of my girlfriends fall victim to these Predators and if we don't put a stop to this our bdsm community will be no more than cesspool of lifeless holes and disgruntled Dominants.


This is not a feminist cry for justice! This is a warning to all of YOU Charlatans!

I will no longer be manipulated to shut up! Or be bullied NOT to speak for fear of shaming. Or told I'm just one of those scorn women who doesn't take any responsibility for her bad choices. Or be told I'm one of 'those women' with ulterior motives and spiteful intentions! 

I wasn't born yesterday and Im not stupid! I didn't ask for this and my friends didn't ask for it either! 

Our claims are warranted and real!!


If you act like this at the workplace with colleagues, you would be out!

If you behaved like this at school, you probably didn't get on so well!

If you treated friends in this manner, you wouldn't have any!

So why do you think you can with the precious body, mind and soul of a submissive??

What gives you right to do that and why should you keep getting away with exploiting the submissives within MY COMMUNITY??


HAVE SOME INTEGRITY!    


We turn to You for Your wisdom, Your strength, Your trust, Your respect and we fall prey to a FRAUD!?!


So don't call yourself-

 A friend, A mentor, A protector, A father A master or a even A lover when all you bring has no depth or meaning!


This is SACRILEGE and abusing the sanctification of bdsm as my religion.


I call you people OUT!!

and if you dont go, I will make sure you will be sent away!! 


Because I will protect my own defiantly and fight for what's mine brutally!


WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

SOON EVERYONE WILL KNOW WHO YOU ARE!


SO Get out of my fucking playground!!!!

Rant over!!

 

 

 

 

 

לפני 5 שנים. 19 בפברואר 2019 בשעה 20:25


He see's her getting out of her car, bag on shoulder and coat draped over her arm. She starts to walk away and turns a little to engage the car lock. That's when she notices Him a few paces behind her. Her heart misses a beat and she takes a sharp breath in. The twisting in her stomach makes her feel nauseous, the blood drains to her legs making her weak suddenly and she practically trips into the gate at the entrance to her home. 

He is up behind her in a second with His hands around her shoulder and waist. She immediately becomes frozen. She wants to raise her arms to separate between them but she cannot cos He grabs her firmly and whispers in her ear "unlock the door lilu". 

She is trying to mumble objections but all that comes out is "please I can't....I can't, please....i, i..."

"Yes you can lilu, open the door"!! And He guides her hand holding the keys to the door lock.

she unlocks the door.


In a matter of seconds the door was closed behind them her bag and coat fallen to the floor at the entrance and He has her crouching with a handful of hair. Her head is forced down and her face tilted towards His. She balances one hand on the floor, the other raised towards him in an attempt to keep an arms length distance between them. Her efforts are futile and looking quite pitiful to him for a second, his iced heart raised one or two degrees. He smiles. 

" Have you missed me lilu"? He asks. 

she can only reply "please, please". 

 She is afraid to look straight at Him and her eyes turn down then turn back up just a little, pleading eyes, half closed, hoping He wont be angry that she dare make eye contact with him at all!!

"You didnt return my call you little slut"! He growls.

 "I will punish you for that you know"!


Meanwhile she has lost the battle to keep balanced on one hand and with both hands on the floor now her knees are too weak to hold her body and her legs sink automatically and she falls to her knees.

She is now on all fours and He likes the way she looks in this position. He sharply twists her face towards the floor and pushes her into it. She can feel the coldness of the tiles against her cheek and lips and she opens her mouth and let's out a moan.

He backs up a little behind her and a crafty smile flashed across His face showing He is pleased she is wearing a dress and a pair of flimsy looking tights.


"Dont you say a fucking word you fucking brat"!! 

"You really dont want to displease me more now do you lilu"? 


HE grabs her hair harder, jerking her head off the floor, backwards so He can look at her face.

"No!!" she screams out! More in defiance but He only hears the answer to His question.


"That's right! Good girl".  he smiles. "That's how I like you lilu, on the floor like this, on your knees for me, happy to see me, begging me to hurt you. 

Isnt that right lilu? And He pushes her face to the floor.

She tries to shake her head but there is no space to turn and it looks like she actually nods instead of shaking her head. All He see's is a beautiful creature, trapped in his grasp, curled up on her knees, tamed and broken in with her ass in the air.

"What a beautiful way to greet your Master lilu, I'm very proud of you. If you continue to behave so well I might go easy on you and make this quick".


"You know you deserve this dont you lilu"?

Again she tries to shake her head, she let's out a whimper but words cannot escape her mouth cos its squashed to the floor. So she tries to raise her arms to grab His hands from her hair but He just pushes her further into the floor and she can feel her teeth digging into the inside of her lips. Instantly, she tastes the blood and the tears are forced out of her eyes onto the floor.

He doesnt like her squirming around and he bends down behind her. 

Almost sitting on her, he lifts her head up a little, brings His face close to hers and says 

"You didnt answer my call lilu and that made me very angry. So angry I had to come all the way here to hear you say you're sorry. And I'm not leaving until I hear it. Do you understand Me lilu"?

She tries to say- Yes!!

But He pushes her face hard to the floor again and she just yells out in pain as she bites down on her tongue.

Her face is wet through with tears and they start to sting the cuts in her mouth. The tears and blood mix her nose then begins to run and she resembles a facefucked gangbang whore in a dungeon porn clip.

His face is still close to hers when He sees that image in His head and it  makes His cock twitch. He also feels His balls tightening, forcing His cock go hard as a rock in seconds.


"So lilu, remember this.  I'm going to take what's mine whenever I want it. And you, my dirty little slut are mine"!

"Is that clear lilu"?!

It was clear to both of them that was a statement,  not a question. And He wasnt expecting an answer.

 

He is crouched behind her and he lifts his body a little to grab her butt cheek really really hard, digging his fingernails into her skin and squeezes tight.

She screams and her hands try to fight his in her hair again but without both hands on the floor she is leaning hard on one shoulder trapping one arm.

He finds the hem of her tights and pulls them down, tearing them and cutting her skin as he pulls them away to expose her bare ass. 

He stops for a second to take a look at her tender little hole and his cock begins to ache. 

He spits on her ass hole and then quickly  unzips his pants. All the while keeping her body down with his and his hand still holding her face to the floor by her hair.


He releases his cock  and it flops out through the gap. He quickly opens the button of his pants and His Jean's  fall down around his thighs setting His cock free to hang hard and heavy in front of Him.

His spits some more into the palm of his hand and He massages his throbbing cock,  watching that tight little hole shrink and release with her breathing and sobbing. 


 "All you need to do is apologize and I will be happy".

"All you live for is to make me happy, right lilu"?!  

"And you are very good at making me happy most of the time"!


She begins to sob and he seems to be listening. 


" It will be quick lilu". 

As He finished the sentence he began to dig his way into her asshole.

At first, just the tip of His cock, going in out, two or 3 times just to tease the head. 


She cant move at all now cos her body is curled up over both arms now and with His weight on top of that she is afraid  she might hurt herself if she tries   to wiggle her way out. 


She feels his cock slipping in and out the entrance to her asshole and she is paralyzed. 

 

She instinctively understood she had only 2 choices here- open for him or not. Either way His cock was going in. The consequences of the latter is imprinted in her memory- like a tattoo on the back of your hand- so she breaths in, long and deep and braces herself.

He then drives into her without mercy. A long hard thrust that goes deeper and deeper, dragging  the skin around her asshole in with it,  chafing the entrance. 

She breathes out slowly and let's out as much air as she can. She  avoids that intake of breath cos she knows from experience that it hurts much more with every breath she takes in.

He recognizes her technique of coping with the pain and it irritates him. He doesnt want her to control the pain. He wants to control it!


I didnt hear you apologize yet slut!! He growls".


He leans in again trying to make sense of her mumbling but everthing coming out of her mouth is indecipherable. What with the swollen lips, face squashed to the floor and trying to breath right it was impossible for her to respond verbally.


He continues to fuck her deep and hard, His face to the back of her neck.


"Apologize lilu"!!

"Apologize  for ignoring my call!! He demands.

She could only say " I...."

And again "I...."


"I'm sorry *****" he prompts her. 

"Repeat"! He orders. And then He bites down on the back of her neck. 

He doesnt let go and begins to gnarl and tear away at skin like a hungry hound.

She screams and tries to form the words with her mouth.


It didnt really matter to Him what words or even what language came out of her mouth. But sounds did come out and it was good enough for Him. He let's go.

She feels a sudden relief and lets out a breath that turns into a loud moan. 


She is given a chance to regain her senses a little while He continues to pump into her without mercy. He has made a tail of her hair and He rides her like a bareback horse.


It will be over soon, she thinks to herself. He will cum soon. 


She then remembers what makes Him cum quicker and she musters all her strength to say 

"*****'s dirty girl".


"Yes you are"!

"You ARE my dirty girl"!!

He bellows in her ear.


He pulls out His cock, He lifts her face from the floor and let's go of her hair. He flips her around to face Him.

She is looking at Him, eyes wide open. There is blood around the inside of her lips and she looks like a delicious wreck to Him. He slaps her face once and quietly says 

" open your mouth wide slut".

She knows now how this is going to end. So she does as she is told. She closes her eyes and opens her battered mouth.


He shoves His cock deep into her mouth and down her throat. 

She winces from the stinging of the cuts around her lips and the  taste of dirt from her asshole and tries to pull away. 

"Its dirty"! she calls out.

But He doesnt care to stop this time. So He spits at her face, slaps it and smears the spit, blood, tears and sweat into her face and hair.


"How many times have I told you to ALWAYS be ready for me slut"?

"I dont care if your ass is dirty. I like my slut dirty"!

"That's what you are lilu. My dirty little slut with a dirty fucking ass and a dirty fucking mouth"!

"This will teach you to always be ready for me"! 

"Always"!!!

He squeezes His fingers around her cheeks, forcing her mouth open. He spits inside it, re-enters her mouth and with His other hand pushes her head onto His cock with force. 

He fucks her mouth  mercilessly until He finally spills His seed deep into her throat. So deep He can feel her reeving into her mouth, trying to swallow and trying hard not to choke! 

He is squealing like a injured animal and the sound rings in her ears.

It goes on too long for her and she begins to gipp out and pull back  gasping for air. 

His orgasm finally peaks and then quickly begins its descent.  

She musters up her last ounce of strength to pull her face to the side and sucks in the bubbles of air trapped around the fluids. She swallows and takes a deep breath into her lungs which makes her  cough and splutter. 

This annoys Him and He taps her on the side of the head and says "Quiet lilu, be quiet!


She welcomes the silence. She barely breaths, afraid to disturb that. 


She is still, she is quiet.


"Just enjoy the quiet lilu" she says in her head. 


And then she hears it- Rain fall on the terrace and the sound of His heart, beating in His chest.

 

לפני 11 שנים. 27 במרץ 2013 בשעה 22:43

Mr G. passes by me and he smiles. His breath smells of gum, he is so close I can actually feel his breathe on my face as he turns to say-

“ what a smile “.


Instant attraction!
A rare occurrence!
A chance of a lifetime and one to be taken advantage of!

He offers me a glass of wine.
He is a gentleman but he is also a little naughty.
He likes my sense of humour and we laugh at each others jokes.
He is charming.
He says the right things.
He makes the right moves.
He has great timing.

I can feel myself melt, like butter in the sunshine.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 


On hand behind my neck and the other holding open my leg, he swings it over his shoulder. I let out a cry of surprise as I am pulled closer to him and his body reaches even deeper inside of me.
I am in a scissor position and I am able to see his whole body from a side point of view.
And ‘boy’ what a view!

His strong shoulders holding my leg.
His fine muscular back tapering down to his slim waist.
His skin shining from his sweat.
His firm white ass, tensing and releasing to the rythm of his thrusts.
Long legs. One leg touching the floor, the other bent beside me.

I stroke him from the centre of his back over his ass and down his leg. Softly running my nails over him, seeing goose bumps form on his skin.

He catches me looking at him.

Now I can feel him looking at me!

He grabs my ass roughly and slaps it hard. Twice!

His hand, now warm from the rush of blood, runs over my skin from the inside of my arm down my sides towards the small of my waist and firmly holds my hips.
He returns from my hips over my stomach and stops at my breast. He gently rolls my nipple in the palm of his hand.
He looks down to watch as he pinches my nipple between his finger and thumb, watching as drop of secreted milk forms over it. He bends to lick it off, and then devours my breast like a hungry wolf.

I quickly bring my hand up onto his shoulder, pushing him away from my tender breast. He fights me and wins but this time he gently licks my breast. Automatically I pull him back, pressing my breast back onto his mouth.
His mouth trails up to my throat, he nibbles my chin and jaw, making his way down to my neck where the shoulder meets.


“Yes” I say, “Just there”.
I can barely breath.
He dives into that spot like a blood thirsty vampire, but his mouth and face is soft and warm, his kisses are gentle.

This is the spot.

He has found it.

Just as he finds the other spot between my legs.


Our eyes lock, I cannot look away.
The heat of my body rises, my body stills in mid-air.
I am there.

He looks into my eyes, he see’s my soul
My eyes are wide open, letting him in.

He opens his mouth in a smile and says- “oh baby”.
And that takes me to the edge.

I take a deep breathe in and, almost afraid I might scream,
I whisper- “Oh God. Yes”.

I can no longer stay focused, my eyes begin to roll back, I lose myself in an explosion running from my core outwards towards my chest, downwards through my legs. Burning the tips of my breasts. I feel the heat rushing up my back. My toes curling and finger nails digging.

That all familiar tickle and tug while my insides contract.

The saliva building in my mouth, hungry to taste his skin.
My head goes back, leaning into his big warm hand.
He looks down as my shoulders and chest rise to meet his.
He licks my lips.
I open my mouth to breath out and he pushes his tongue into it. Our tongues meet, flicking, searching, tasting each other in that decadent kind of way you would if you tasted sweet chocolate for the 1st time in our life.

“ How do you know my name?” He says.


My body shudders in after shocks.
My heart is pumping blood back to area’s depleted during the rush. I can hear it beat in my head.
My breathing has now turned into light gasps and  shaky little noises escape my mouth.
I have a serene smile on my face, now shining with after glow.
My eyes are closed and small tears of joy leak from the corners of my eye lids.

He places my face against his chest.
I nest there breathing in his scent.
This is my calming place.

I open my eyes and say-
“I have been to heaven. Can you take me there again, My Lord?”

לפני 11 שנים. 19 במרץ 2013 בשעה 21:51

The first thing I feel is a slap on my face and his hand grabs a handful of my hair to drag me to the bed.
“On your knees”, he orders me.
The next thing I feel is the sting of his whip.
“One, two, three“, I count in my head.

“On the floor, on your knees”, is his next command.
“First I’m going to come in your mouth”, he states, and he does just that!

Today it is my honour to give him a massage.
Rubbing the oil into his skin, climbing his almighty body like Mount Everest. I am allowed to touch him and feel the heat of him with my hands. I get to worship his body and without shame or reprimand look at him in all his greatness.
He does not complain as I take advantage of the oil running from his buttocks down onto his balls. I massaging him intimately and I nuzzle there, kissing him, licking him, my tongue tracing up from his balls towards his lower back.

Secretly I take the opportunity to rub my nipples over his skin while balancing over him. From time to time I gently sit back upon his leg, leaving little drips of my arousal that now escape freely from between my legs.

There is no need for more stimulation, I am ready, I am soaked.

Today It was supposed to be for HIS pleasure and HIS only, but I secretly took what was denied me and lied when I said “I didn’t”!

For that, I am sure I will be punished!

 

לפני 11 שנים. 17 במרץ 2013 בשעה 21:45

I don’t mind if he is bald and smooth or if he has grab on and hold on hair.Eyes that look straight through me and stay open to watch till the end.
A mouth that make me want to kiss him, taste him and lick him, all over!A voice that will make me shake and jump to his will and every command.Wide shoulders, strong arms and big warm hands.
My favorate place is to snuggle into his chest hair, just rest there and breathe in his scent.
Making my way down to his hard stomach, nibbling and kissing, my nails scratching along his sides.Strong legs that will hold us both against a wall. Aye pape!!
Kneeling at his feet, kissing and worshipping the very ground he walks upon.The muscles of his ass tense and flexing as I watch him in the mirror driving forward and back, forward and back……His balls smooth and swollen resting on my face, heavy and wet from my mouth.
Tracing the vein of his dick up to the head and around with the tip of my tongue and slowly flicking the entrance.
My tongue, insatiable, licking and searching for more…….
His dick standing tall and proud, twitching, beckoning me closer.
Oh my, the taste of him after he pulls out of me!
Oh my, the taste of him as he comes in my mouth!

לפני 11 שנים. 7 במרץ 2013 בשעה 19:37

A woman will seduce a man with her beauty and her grace. She will set the mood but she allows him to set the pace. She will tempt him with her scent when she floats past him. She teases him with the softness of her skin as she brushes against him. She has powers in a spell and she will not hesitate to use them.
A woman is not to be underestimated and she will secretly take what is denied her.

She has strength of will and insatiable with her demands. She is a force to be reckoned with when she is disappointed. As sweet as honey to the taste, her tongue knows how to sting like a bee.

Sir. Your patience will be tried but the rewards make her worth it.

Without the moon the tide will not rise and a boat cannot sail without water in the river.
A dominant man is just a bully without a submissive woman.

 

Power to my sisters and all the respect to the men who dominate them.

לפני 11 שנים. 3 במרץ 2013 בשעה 20:27

Flashbacks of scenes kept coming to me day after day, hour after hour, lingering with me, catching me off balance in a dream.
Lord if anyone could read my mind…….!!
The secret smile on my face & sparkle in my eyes told the story.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
He wrote-
כבר כמה ימים שלא הפסיקו לטחון במהדורות החדשות על תמונת ניצחון.
משהו שישסיים את זה טוב עבורנו.
בצד השני גם דיברו על תמונת ניצחון. עבורם, כמובן.
אף אחד לא הסביר להם שתמונות ניצחון זה לא למדיניות ולא משהו שמנהלים חיים של עמים איתו.
בלילה אחד השבוע התנהל במקביל מבצע מקומי.
עם פעולה אווירית, עם זרוע משוריינת, עם חדירות קרקעיות.
עם "הלם ומורא", עם לחימה בשני חזיתות במקביל.
עם עמדה אמצעית וקווים פנימיים.
עם יצירת אפקטים כואבים ובניית הרתעה.
לא לגמרי מתוכנן מראש, אבל מהסוג שניתן לקרוא לו "מבצע מתגלגל" כשדבר מוביל לדבר.
תמונת הסיום של המבצע היתה של שני ראשים צמודים זה לזה, בפיות פעורים, כשפסי זרע טריים מסמנים את הפנים והלשונות.
זו היתה תמונת ניצחון.
זה היה המקום הנכון בשבילה.
אחרי שהן הלכו, בישרו אתרי האינטרנט שהפסקת האש נכנסה לתוקף.
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She wrote-
אני מעיפה מבט במראה. שתינו עם עיניים שטופות דם, פרועות שיער, פסי זרע על הפנים, מזויינות לעייפה כבר שעתיים, סימנים כחולים ואדומים על הישבנים.
120 דקות של זיונים מלכותיים, מלקות שוט כואבות, ציות להוראות מדוייקות ועבודה הדדית מאומצת במטרה אחת. להביא את האדון לסיפוקו.
השפחות מסופקות כבר הרבה קודם. כמו שרק מלך טבעי, גדול כמוהו, עם כלי זין אימתני, ראש יצירתי ודרישות גבוהות יכול לספק.
כך נראה אקורד הסיום של הערב.

הוא התחיל אחרת. בנועם תרבותי בבר יין קטן ואינטימי. שתינו יושבות צמודות על ספסל עץ, עם יין, מעשנות ומפטפטות בהתרגשות דרוכה, מחכות לאדון שיצטרף.
כשהוא מגיע הוא מתרכז בשפחה החדשה. מראיין אותה בשאלות ישירות להפגיע.
מה שמאפשר לי להתרכז בשמלה הקצרה מדי שלי, שבישיבה חושפת את פס התחרה של הגרבונים על הירכיים, ותחושת הרטיבות של הכוס העירום שלי לא רחוק משם מטילה עלי צל כבד של חשש שארטיב גם את השמלה.
אני מתפתלת על המושב ומקבלת ממנו מבט של אזהרה. הוא לא אוהב את חוסר המנוחה שלי.
נזוז. הוא קובע.
תוך דקות אנחנו פוסעות אחרי הגב הרחב שלו, מתאמצות להשיג את הצעדים הגדולים שלו. כן, המלך שלי הוא ענק.
נכנסים לדירה שלו. הוא לא מבזבז דקה.
אני ראשונה בקו החזית.
תתפשטי.
השפחה החדשה ברקע, צופה. לא לזמן רב.
אני מתפשטת ויורדת על הברכיים, משחררת את הזין שלו מהמכנסיים וקולטת אותו בפה שלי,
משיי למגע מבחוץ וקשה מבפנים וענק, ענק.
אין לי מושג איך זה קורה, היין הולם לי בראש ומהר מאד שלושתנו על המיטה.
היא פנתרה גמישה. והיא תקבל זין ראשונה.
אני מביטה בעיניים בוערות על שניהם, הלב שלי הולם בערבוביה של חרמנות וקינאה וגאווה וטירוף רגשות וסערה בראש.
הוא מסובב אותה על הבטן עם הפנים אלי ומורה לה בטון שלא משתמע לכלום חוץ מציות מוחלט:
תלקקי לה את הכוס. היא מתנפלת עלי, אני פעורה ופשוקה מולה, מולו, והוא בועל אותה באדנות, באלימות, בעוצמה נוראית, מאחור. היא אוכלת אותי ומחדירה בי אצבעות ומעבירה אלי את כל העוצמה שהוא מכניס בה מאחור ואני נעולה מול העיניים שלו עם כל העונג המרטיט הזה, חשופה אליו לחלוטין, עד הסוף.
הוא שולף שוט מהארון ומצליף בשתינו והכאב חודר לי לנשמה ומבעיר לי את הכוס בזרמים חזקים של כאב מהנה.
הישבן הקטן שלה מכחיל ומאדים ואני בוהה בצבעים המתהווים בזעזוע. פעם הוא בועל אותי ופעם הוא חודר אליה. היא מוצצת לו ואחריה אני וזה נמשך ונמשך בעוצמות מרעידות והמלך לא גומר. שעתיים. זיונים של הלייף.
עד הסוף המרטיט, כשהמלך עומד מעל שתינו ומרסס את הפנים של שתינו בזירמת השיא שלו. כמו שתי כלבות צייתניות, צמודות ראשים, אנחנו מלקקות יפה הכל, לא משאירות אף טיפה.
אני מעיפה מבט במראה. שתינו עם עיניים שטופות דם, פרועות שיער, פסי זרע על הפנים, מזויינות לעייפה כבר שעתיים, סימנים כחולים ואדומים על הישבנים.
אקורד הסיום.
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He set a fire within me, a burning desire for more. But he made me beg.
I couldn’t go to anyone else, he had branded me untouchable until the marks disappeared.
And he made me wait.
It was a burning hell, every evening masturbating, re-living those scenes, imagining a session 1on 1. The torture of waiting to hear from him, burning hot, cold, hot, cold!!
“Why do you make me wait? This fire is yours, you lit it, Please do me the honor of extinguishing it Sir“.
And still he made me wait.

I waited 2 and a half weeks, 18 day's, to be invited, to be used, abused and sent home to finally call a cease fire.

 

לפני 11 שנים. 1 במרץ 2013 בשעה 20:13


I am a woman.

I am a woman but I am not inferior to a man.
I am strong because of my passion and I flourish in the strength & control of a man.

I willingly give my submission but I do not give it lightly.

I will give you the gift of dominance over me because I find you worthy.
I willingly give you dominance over me because you cherish this as a gift.

I will put complete trust in you because you show concern for my wellbeing.

I can give you the faithfulness of my heart.
I will open my heart & soul to you because you accept the responsibility with honour.

I will throw away my fears and inhibitions.
I will show you my needs & desires which will give you purpose to your efforts.

I am a woman, strong & proud and I give myself fully to He who has the strength of a true Master.