The storm in my head doesn't settle and at best its foggy. Sometimes I wonder off somewhere in my mind and I cant snap out of my daydreams.
I search every face for you and look over my shoulder a thousand times a day. But a little numb I go about my daily routine. I leave for work at the same hour and return home without any diversions.
In my mind I see you sitting there, I see you in my bed. Yet I cannot bring myself to touch the stuff you left behind for fear of breaking.
Even my dreams are haunted by you. So vivid I can smell you and my body yearns for you. But I torture myself and deny her any release.
I am angry and I am hurt but most of all im baffled. I still dont understand what I did wrong or what I should have done differently.
A million questions run through my mind and I often doubt the answers that common sense and reason might offer me.
The storm will settle, winter will pass, and the sun will shine again.
Before you charged into my life I had been alone for ever and I was content with that. I didnt feel I needed much more. The hole you left behind wasnt there before you came into my life and now you have gone I suddenly feel empty and lost.
I know it's over and I'm left now to find my peace again. But I just want to add that I'm grateful.
Yes, I'm grateful! Because now I know what's missing in my life. Now I know what I need to feel whole.