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Neverland

In between life and death
לפני 8 שנים. 10 בפברואר 2016 בשעה 15:34

Sometimes we get to see people we knew long time ago, some we presumed already forgotted in the fabric of time.
But they do not really disapper, nor all the things you shared and passed together 

Latly i got to see that flash, it burnt me like a crisp from the inside out in an instant.
All these bad times and good ones, mostly the bad came flooding back like an overflowing river crushing down the dam i built around me so long ago.
That face remineded me all the things i used to love and hate, all the hardship i passed back in that time of life.
but luckly for me, that guy in the mirror was there to cage me before i pressed the gas paddle as i stopped the car.
But it did work to show me, that i know who and what i am at all times.
What i learned from that time with all the pain and suffering, to teach me to become a better person not for others but for myself before anything else.
but the voices did rage inside my head, that little voice that send us doing crazy things like "you should just run them over 10 times in reverse if possible it will be fun" and the little angel "you are "better then this you learned your lesson haven't you ?

lucky for me, i have an advanced mechnizem i built over time.
Strong mental reslove resulting in contasnt maintainting my beastial needs at bay while having another person to take over in cases things get too hairy for my mind to handle.
Taking me into auto pilot at a moments notice and picking the best course of action.
mine was, letting walk past my car.

But the memories, they came back to haunt me stonger and more vivd then ever before I hope i wont need his services again anytime soon but who knows what might just happen in a minute from now ?
.That is the beauty of life and its greatest virtue, life is unperdictable 


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