It's been 6-7 years since we met, in a sea of boring girls I found L, gorgeous, smart, confident, use to getting her way (especially with men) and with very clear limits, that, in retrospect must have sealed the deal, slowly, pulling, smearing and finally just ignoring those limits one by one was a journey that we took together and it was one hell of a ride.
To be clear, I am very faithful, in my own way, it may not seem it, but my wife has always come first, and while I've always been close, even loving to my partners, it was never a competition, home always came first, and after that friend; and funny as it is to say, I've slept with most of my closest friends, L is a great example, I cared, and will probably always care about her, and I never meant to hurt her, even if I think I ultimately did, more than once, for that reason I will try to be carful with details regarding her life.
It was different this time around, we talked, and flirted, and decided to meet, but she felt she was too good for this kind of bullshit, who did I think she was,how did she think I was.
So I tried something new, I gave her all the power, let her set the rules, and control everything, every so often watching for a moment of weakness and pushing her past her (current) limit, to a place she never believed she'd go, we did this dance over and over, from a kiss to a fuck, and each time she'd come up and take my hand for another dance that we both bullshited ourselves into thinking she was leading. I won't go into details, her story is her own, but we went through a lot of hard times together, and it made our relationship something special, we talked, we texted, we touched and we fucked like crazy, and we always lay there, both dripping and relaxed, and we hugged and cuddled, it was always so, polar.
We fucked, and kept fucking, for a long time, here and there, for a while, and one day I was on my way home when she texted me about a guy she started talking to online, he was a "Dom", i heard the title before, but wasn't quite keyed into exactly what it entailed, i mean I've always been dominant in bed, how different was it... and she told me about him, in retrospect she was just being a great sub and getting me to do what she wanted and make me feel like it was my idea; she poked, and tried to hurt my confidence by telling me its "not for me" and, she managed to hit a soft spot, because my voice went very cold, and very even, its the voice i still get today, and I told her to shut up, go take a shower, get dressed, no need for panties, just a skirt... and be ready for my text, once she gets it she'll have 20 minutes to be here, waiting in an alley near my house, do you understand?
It took her nearly 20 seconds until she snapped back to the conversation, her reply was a very soft "yes", "good, just don't be late" and i hung up.
My erection could have killed someone at this point, I took this girl, who had never been told to do a thing without arguing, manipulating, or using any tool in her considerable arsenal to get her way, and I made her bend to my will in such an absolute way.
I made an excuse about going out for a walk, I remember i still had what i wore to work on when I left, it was a black T-shirt and a black leather jacket, she picked me up and she tried going right back to our chatty banter by laughing at the fact i thought black leather was what BDSM was about, I turned to her put a hand on her leg and explained that she was to drive to where i told her, and be quite on the way.
I told her I hope she remembered to lose the panties, and i stuck a finger in to check, she was wetter then I've ever seen her, and this was the first time i touched her, we got to a small road out of the way, and i tormented the poor girl for about an hour, not letting her move her eyes without my say so, not letting her near my dick and only touching her enough to leave her in a state of confusion and perpetual horniness.
We fucked eventually, it was rough and she was hypnotized, like she wasn't there, just obeying and overjoyed to do so, she didn't orgasm, at this point she had never orgasm with anyone yet, that eventualy changed with me, which made us even closer.
She felt absolute lose of self was and found it intoxicating, and i was starting to form a habit myself, I had never known this kind of power even with "the Tourist"; this beautiful, young, successful girl wanted me to let her touch me, this girl whose body screamed to turn around and just look at me, but who couldn't, because i had said so, and the thought of disobeying was unbearable to her.
I remember how overwhelmingly content she looked when i finally came in her mouth, she was so proud of herself, so happy, it made it all the better to see her this way, I hugged her and told her what a good girl she was and she was so proud, so proud she did as she was told, and that I was happy with her, I even showed her how much by shooting what felt like a shot glass worth of cum into her mouth and told her to swallow.
Our relationship continued, we where together for 3 years I think, and during that time she only had one other man, and that was pretty late in the relationship, and it ended badly for her, it felt like her life was on pause, for me, very thrilling and empowering, but ultimately... it felt wrong.
About once a week, I'd have time and I'd let her know, her schedule would shift around me, and I wouldn't have much time, so she'd get messages like "30 minutes from now, showered, naked on your knees, with that blindfold I got you, don't lock the door", sure enough 30 minutes later she'd be waiting, next to her bed, scared shitless that someone else walked in off the street, but not daring to ask or to peek...
finally, it started to simmer down, I felt bad, and kept saying it, and it made her feel... unattractive I guess, that was never my intent, but I'm glad she moved on, last we talked she had someone and she sounded as if she was happy, I don't know if it was for my benefit or not, but I hope its true.
On our last visit I had reserves (again) and I managed to get out in the evening and sleep in her place, my first time doing something that reckless, it was fun, but sadly, I wore her out far too quickly and her promises of waking me up at night and my "fun alarm clock" turned to her passing out at 22:00 and only waking up while I was in uniform, giving her what would probably be our last kiss...
