צהריים טובים אורח/ת
עכשיו בכלוב

Memoirs of a cheating sex-addict

I'm trying to get things straight in my head, and since memory is not my strongest suit, maybe its time to write this stuff down.
I'm also looking for feedback, kick my ass or show some sympathy, just don't be apathetic.
לפני 9 שנים. 14 בדצמבר 2015 בשעה 12:57

I had a taste of something new, after marrying young, and it was fast and hard, and it pumped my ego to levels I hadn't know up to this point, and I wanted more; I went online and started looking, I wasn't sure what I was looking for, and to be honest with myself I wasn't sure I really wanted it.

It took me a long time to make a move, and I found very few girls looking for an anonymous married man, that may have been due to the fact I was looking in dating (type) apps, I wasn't looking to meet, not really, I was confused and worried, and was hoping for another girl to fall in my lap.

I actually met, and had sex with 2-3 girls who didn't mind just fucking for no reason; I must say I'm suprised at how good a girl who will meet a married stranger, to have sex in public looks; I met girls in public bathrooms, parks, and places of employment, and it was fun, but it was never something I was interested in keeping...

It was me being self destructive and stupid, and trying to get back that feeling of ego and control.

I talked to a girl from the north, she was younger, around 23, I remember thinking shes so much younger, I don't think that now, since I meet a younger girl semi-regularly, but at the time, she was young, sexual and ready to go, a real freak, but there was no way I could, between work and home, there just wasn't a way I could travel back ad forth and be with her, so we chatted and teased and showed off to one another...

I was on a chat with some girl all the time, several at once, at times, and I was feeling how I was spiraling out of control, doing too much too fast...

So I stopped.
I said my goodbyes to everyone, the girl online included, and I still keep a screenshot of one of her last messages, "There a tight collage pussy dying to have you inside it, and you're saying no?", I sucked...

That's was the start of 4-5 "dry months" in which i was moody, angry, depressed... I was a junky without a fix, and it took forever for the symptoms to die down, a little, but I was ok.

I don't remember what set me off, but I started again, but after talking to a few girls who I didn't find interesting, and honestly I think meeting a girl or two for a quick meaningless fuck, I met L, the girl who changed my direction sexually, and taught me so much about myself, and in a way, my first...


להוספת תגובה לבלוג זה עליך להיות חבר/ה רשומ/ה ומחובר/ת לאתר


הרשמ/י התחבר/י