אחרי השקיעה... לפני הזריחה...

I want to gain self discipline!

After spending so much time following someone else's rules I think I finally understand that in order to be happy it has to come from an inner strength.

i admit this is hard. 

I am the ultimate Sub! I have no boundaries, when I trust I give it all. I love the feeling of being "broken into" and the feeling of belonging.

I have seen it all. I know how I can fly infinity high and I know I can handle the lows.

But...

and there is a but!

I want to be happy without feeling it depends on another.

I know that there is no happiness without pain... but I want tףthe pain to come from within. I want it to feel like I'm being strong for me, for self love and not in order to make someone else happy!

I want to be loved by me and by another.

And then... after I have accomplished that I will dare again.

After all I am not a looser and will not surrender.

I believe in all of life's gifts including the gift of Reciprocal love and mutual trust.

Sunny is taking a new path...

SELF Discipline!!